A Letter to the Years That Changed Me (2017–2024)

2017 to 2024…

I see you differently now.

At the time, I thought I was just living my life.

Moving through love, through motherhood, through the everyday moments that felt both beautiful and heavy all at once.

But now I understand…

You were an initiation.

You were the years that cracked me open.

The years that stripped away who I thought I was…

so I could meet who I truly am.

When I look back, I see the woman I was at the beginning.

She was still searching.

Still trying to be what she thought she needed to be.

Still carrying wounds she hadn’t yet met.

And then… I became a mother.

And in that moment, something sacred shifted.

The old version of me… began to fall away.

Not all at once. Not easily.

But slowly, layer by layer.

I was being asked to become someone new.

And becoming… isn’t gentle.

There were moments that brought me to my knees.

Moments that forced me to look at the parts of myself I had spent a lifetime avoiding.

My wounds.

My shame.

My guilt.

My fear.

And instead of running…

I stayed.

I met them.

I listened.

I softened into the discomfort of truly seeing myself.

And somewhere in that process…

I began to alchemize.

Not because of what was done to me…

but because of what was awakening within me.

Those years held pain. That is true.

There were moments that were heavy.

Moments where I felt unseen, unheard, and deeply alone.

But even in that…

Something within me was rising.

A deeper awareness.

A stronger presence.

A quieter, more grounded knowing.

I see it now.

This wasn’t just a chapter of my life.

This was a rebirth.

The woman I was at the beginning of those years…

is not the woman I am today.

I found myself in those years.

I found the parts of me I had buried.

I found my voice.

I found my power.

And I stepped into something deeper…

My truth.

My awareness.

My divinity.

So today, I don’t look back with resentment.

I look back with understanding.

I honor the path.

I honor the woman who walked it.

I honor what I became through it.

And now…

I release those years.

I release the version of me that existed within them.

With love.

With awareness.

With gratitude for what was revealed.

And I step forward…

rooted in who I am now.

open to what is unfolding.

and fully embodied in the woman I was always becoming